Today at work, it was busy. Really, really, busy. In the midst of the insanity, I got a ridiculously bad headache, and my words got a bit confused. It felt the same as the only other time that I've had a migraine, but I immediately popped some tylenol & put on my glasses, quickly I felt better. A little while later I felt like I might have a panic attack of sorts. I felt very anxious, in fact right now while typing this & recalling how I felt, I feel the same way. I feel like someone is squeezing my throat. Ok, I need to shake it off.
Wow, that was intense. Anyhow...I don't know what's going on with me. It's driving me crazy though.
I know that I need to look after myself better. I need to get exercise, some, at least...if not for me then for my little Katie Lou...my little lou lou bear...she deserves the best Mama she can have. I don't know why I can't force myself to understand that I need to change. I mean, I know it, obviously I know it, but why don't I feel like I'm enough to deserve it? Why can't I figure out a way to do this?
I feel like there's a big change coming in my life, our life soon...Something good is going to happen for us soon, maybe this is it? Maybe, getting our health back is the change...maybe, it's time for us to make it the change....
Change is never easy... ok, maybe that's a little too much of a blanket statement... how about: For many people, change is never easy... There, that sounds better. And yes, you can include me as one of those people.
ReplyDeleteI think that your body is trying to tell you something. What? I can't know the answer to that... but there is definitely a message in there somewhere.
Oh... and I have to say... "my little lou lou bear" gave me a huge smile! That's awesome!