I haven't been feeling so hot the last two weeks. My back was really bad for a little over a week, the move was stressful, I've been taking my pills at different times every day, I'm beyond exhausted all of the time. Tomorrow I'm going to call the day clinic to get an appointment to get a refill on my pills & hopefully get some blood work done. I think my B12 is probably just low, but we'll see, could just be all the stress of the last month finally catching up with me.
I like being home. It feels right. Although, I do forget almost on a daily basis that we aren't in Moncton anymore. It's weird. I forget that we can't just run to Champlain Place on a whim because we're bored or that Second Cup is no longer an option for yummy lattes. Those are the things I miss the most so far. I made very few real friends in Moncton, I made a lot of acquaintances, and met a lot of great people. Very few real friends though. So, I'm hoping Miramichi will be a way for me to get back to being the girl with friends who loves to have fun & do stuff. Except now, I'm also a mother & wife. I'm fairly certain that I'm a much improved version of the Paula who left Miramichi 8 years ago.
I feel more confident in who I am. I have learned a lot about myself in the last 8 years. The person I let myself become, the faults I had, the mistakes I made, some bigger than others, but each a lesson. I, also,have learned how damn strong I am. I have learned to be a great mother. I have learned to be a better wife. I have learned to be a better & more free me.
I am perfectly fine with the person that I am. I know the person I can become though, and that is who I am striving to become.
I am more shocked than I care to admit to make the next statement, but I truly believe Miramichi holds our chance at a great life.
Life is good. I'm grateful. I'm so so lucky. Life is good.
